LonelyBoy's Blog

27 August 2009, Long time didn’t updates blog already, because I was very busy. These days really nothing special is happening. After get some advice, I become happier. Yesterday after wake up, my heart was very pain. I got some bad feel but I don’t know what is that feel. Those feel still there until yesterday night. After something special is happening then the feel gone. I wanted to change, but I don’t know what thing can make me change. Yesterday night, we go eat steamboats our dinner. Don’t know what to write ler, just see the image lor.

Today I feel very down because of some reason but I don’t wish to share it here. After something special is happening, I feel that I wanted to change my life. I don’t wish to continue doing what I doing before this. I feel like wanted to give up on this kind of life, I really so tired to handle those problems. I wanted to start my new life without all the pain that I was having before this. Anyone can tell me what I should do next? These kinds of life really make me so hard to continue on it. I did something very bad and make me can’t forgive myself. Don’t know why, this problem seen normal only ma but for me really so hard to put it down. Really dun knows how to face the coming problem. I really hate this kind of life, anyone can pull me out?

Because of today I was very down, so I didn’t attend any classes. I know I should not do like this but no choice. I really don’t wish to go. So I stay inside my room for the whole day. Keep on thinking what I should do next, what I suppose to do for me to give up my old life. Until now I still don’t know how to do. Because I didn’t something that very bad, is just like taking other people thing without their permission. Don’t know how to say, but I feel that I was so bad even the person said he doesn’t mind but I really mind what I do before. I don’t know how to face this person in the future. I really wanted to dig a hole and hide my face inside there. What should I do? Can you please come back and guide me? For this moment I really need her to accompany me. Don’t worry I won’t stop there and wait for her to come back. Life is still going on, maybe one day is me going there and find her ler.