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My Teenage Life

~25 December 2009, Merry Christmas~

Last Christmas's Lyrics

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shyed
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby
Do you recognize me
Well, it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me
Merry Christmas, I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying 'I love you', I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kiss me now, I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

A crowded room and friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you and your soul of eyes
My God, I thought you were someone to rely on
Me, I guess I was a shoulder to cry on
A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A girl on a cover but you tore her apart
Maybe this year
Maybe this year I'll give it to someone special

Cause last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

And last Christmas
And this year
It won't be anything like, anything like

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Every years after count down at somewhere else, I will make a wish! Even I dun
know it will come true or not, but I believe it will come true. Every wish that
I made before this is complicated but this year no longer hard to become
reality in this world. This year, my wish is very simple only, it will
easy to come true and become reality in this wonderful world
!
I always believe that miracle will happen! I would like
to
share my wish here, hopefully my wish will come true!

Wish all your wishes and your dream will come true!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

14 November 2009, Raining day~~

Already more than half month I did not update my blog, seem
like very busy doing with my own thing. Dun know is acting busy or
really so busy, maybe I am acting busy so I won't thinking on
someone again and again. Honestly some time I was really busy doing
assignment and start doing some revision for the Mid-Term Test.

This weekend, I didn't go back to my hometown because next
weekend I will be going to Johor for attending my cousin wedding
party. Since I did not go back so now I am stay alone at my
apartment. That loneliness feeling is back, tonight I planing not
to stay at home. I will go find some friends to spent my time.

Writing For Mass Communication Subject, required all student to
bring they own Newspaper. So every week I also will buy a newspaper.
Since I have nothing to do when I free, so I open up the newspaper
and start reading. Every page that I read also got people died. So
many accident happen around the world including the nature sides.

Recently at kampar so many bad things is happening around us. Too
many things happening yet I cannot do anything for them. Thing only
I can do now is, just praying for them. Hope they all will rest in
peace at another beautiful world. A little advice from me, I know you
all like to enjoy your life, so whatever you do remember safety first.

Video: Take Me To Your Heart
By: Michael Learns To Rock


Dark Blue = Original Lyrics by Michael Learns To Rock
Purple = My own meaning that reflecting my Life

Hiding from the rain and snow
Always avoid from facing the true

Trying to forget but I won't let go
Wanted to forget but the heart was not allowed

Looking at a crowded street
Walking at the endless way without ending

Listening to my own heart beat
Always follow my heart, did not think about other feeling

So many people all around the world
Many people in this world, why can't find a new love?

Tell me where do I find someone like you girl
Where to find the person that giving the same feeling?

Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Let me know what do you thinking on your current life

Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me that you still love me before I'm die

Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Dun understand what is love - why it so powerful?

Show me that wonders can be true
Prove to me that miracle is still around the world

They say nothing lasts forever
Is that nothing is lasts forever?

We're only here today
You're only here for 1 years

Love is now or never
Haven't prove that how much I love you

Bring me far away
Throw me alone without happiness

Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Let me know more about you in your life

Give me your hand and hold me
Show me that you still love me in my life

Show me what love is - be my guiding star
Tell me what love is - protected my heart being hurts

It's easy take me to your heart
Allow me to know more about you

Standing on a mountain high
Waiting you forever in my life

Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
Thinking about you through a clear direction

I should go and see some friends
Try to let other people know about my feeling

But they don't really comprehend
But I cannot tell them the true on my situation

Don't need too much talking without saying anything
Dun just only said love me without proving anything

All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing
All I need is someone who give me the feeling

Someone Story is Back
~Episode 4~

Someone back to half recover status on the previous injuries. Someone
keep on thinking that why not just let it go? Someone already sacrifice so many
thing because of someone why just let it go without obtaining any response.
Whatever someone can do, someone already do but someone did not show
any responses. Maybe someone think that dun have the responsibility on this
problem. Someone just throw someone aside without helping anything.

Someone did not hope anything else, what someone hope is study more harder
and wanted to see someone happy. That already enough for someone in life.
Got
one sentence that always use by older people, "Love someone is not to own
them
in your life, is make someone happy then already enough." From the
starting,
someone did not agree the sentence but seem like nothing someone can
do anymore so someone forced believe and apply the sentence to someone life.


What someone hope it really become the true, someone can feel someone happy
in life. Already few times, someone said "Hi" to someone, but someone pretend
dun know who is someone and ignored someone. Someone was very sad, what
someone hope now is the status can back to normal when the day someone meet
with someone. Someone wish to be friend with someone so someone can get
back the old "care feeling" from someone. But someone know is impossible!

End of Someone Story Episode 4~
Blue: The Writer [ Myself ]
Purple: Secret [ You know, I know and the also GOD know. But dun let the public know. ]

Everyone in this world must had do something wrong,
it depend they are many mistake or few mistake,
and they must know how to take action to replace,
the mistake that he had been done before this?

Is that really that hard to forgive someone that hurting,
you before in your life? Even your mouth said you
dun mind but in your heart you are still mind the
mistake that I done before! Please Forgive Me!

1 November 2009, My current life~~

After the second section of counseling, I fell
much better now and I also know what to do
next step but she said she still wanted to help
me so she want me to meet her again for the
third section on the next coming Tuesday, 3
November 2009, 2.00pm sharp! What she will
advice me next? Would she still can help me?

On 28 October 2009, Praying for one of my housemate,
William! He fell down accidentally at Utar Campus
and his head hit on the floor. Hope he will be fine and
will recover soon, Please pray for him together!
Current information about my friend, the doctor
said that he was fine and nothing must need to worry,
doctor ask him do whatever thing as usual.

Today I was very tired, driving for the whole day looking for
the previous newspaper. Last Monday, Mass Communication
Class, Mr. Joe ask us to buy the New Straits Times ( NST )
newspaper. After I discuss with my groupmate, I was chosen
to buy Friday papers. On Friday, I was very busy with other
and forget to buy the paper so today I search the whole Ipoh
for the Friday ( 30 October 2009 ) newspaper.

He warning us before this, if you didn't bring the thing that
he need, please dun not enter his class. That rules is created
by himself. At last I found the newspaper that I want, thank to
The Star's staff, going to New Straits Times Office and search
the papers for me. Even that staff is from The Star Company
but he willing to help me going to the office and look for the
papers. Because of him, I can enter tomorrow classes already.

Thank you for the staff that helping me,
On the way back to house,
listening to One FM,
got 1 English Song lyric,
Dun look back, look forward to your life!

23 October 2009, Currently, I'm looking for a way to solve my
problem. Until now, I still can not find what the best way
to put down my sadness cases. What I want here is to
let go all my problems and serious study in this trimester?
Everything is over, why I still caring on someone? Why
I still so mind on someone? Cannot just pretend nothing
is happening before this? All the problem is my fault!

Looking at one of my buddy so sad, it make me think back
so many sadness cases. Looking at him, is just like reflecting
to my problem too. In that kind of situation, I really dun
know how to help him. Even myself also cannot settle my
own problem. When I was looking at him, honestly I can
feel the pain that he having. That time, I dun know to do
just sitting there to accompany him when he was sad.

That day my heart was very pain, dun know what is happening
inside there. Maybe it because of someone but I hope is not
someone anymore. Today 10am having a counseling section
at UTAR Campus. For the first sections, I voice it out the problem
that I facing to the counselor. She told me that she need
sometime to discuses and analysis my current problem. So our
next section will be on next Tuesday 27 October 2009, 2.00pm!

3个好人
One more Chance, A Jack Neo Film
A Chinese Song!

为何不回头再望一眼?
Why can't you look back one more time?

为何不轻轻会挥你的手
Why can't you wave a gentle goodbye

你就这样,离我而运去
You just walk away

留下一份淡淡离愁
leaving behind a mellowed sorrow

为何不回头再看看我?
Why can't you look at me one more time?

我想再静静握你的手
I yearn to hold your hand again

向你诉说你可不要走
and ask you not to go

愿你再能那样爱我
I wish you could love me like before

问你到底这是谁的错?
Tell me whose fault is it?

相爱何必又要分手
Why part if there's love?

无奈何, 轻轻一声
With regrets, I whisper

但愿你可不要忘了我
I wish you could love me like before

At kampar now, didn't go back to my hometown,
Staying alone at kampar house, so scary,
Dun know what will happening tonight,
I hate alone, I hate loneliness!
それは私の障害、私は気の毒だったが、私はあなたを愛しよ!

16 October 2009, 1 day KL Trip, Before the trip, I was very disappointed on someone that he break his promise on me. Feel very upset because he already give me a hope and promise me will do it but later on he look like didn't take any action on it so I think he might been forgotten what he promise me before. Actually, I am not angry or blame who is this kind of situation just feel unlucky because I cannot get the promise from him. Maybe because of the economic problem!

*Don't misunderstanding, someone above is not the someone from the story!

Back to the topic, going KL with buddy [ Wai Kit & Jacky ] for 1 day only because on the other day, Jacky got something to do so we need to go back. But I really enjoy the trip even the trip only 1 day. So many thing that I haven't experienced it before example like sleeping at MCD while we waiting for the train to come. Some more we was cheated by KL people, 3 of us has been cheated for RM40.

At first, they blocked our way and ask us to give them 1 minute to explain.

Swindler: Hi, I am form dun know where and ask you all to give us some support.
Me: What do you want me to help you?
Swindler: Just help me write down your name here and you dun have any damnification at all.

I feel like nothing wrong by just helping them write down my own name. Then I just follow what they said, write down my name, age, handphone number and the next is...

Swindler: Sir, how much do you want to support us?
Me: Har? Want to support by donating money? Then I support them RM10.
Swindler: Sorry, please don't mind the minimum you need to support us is RM20.
Me: [ Speechless, thinking the should I donate or not. ]
Swindler: Please lar, we really need your all de support so that we can continue with our program.
Me: Ok lor, I will support you all by donating RM20.
Swindler: Oh... Thank you Sir. [ Keep talking nonsense ]

Wai Kit and Jacky also cheated by them, not only 1 cheater. Got a group of them doing but I am the most stupid one among of us, let the swindler cheated me RM2o. Both of them on support them by donating RM10 only. Pity me... Crying! Why? Why? Why Me?

What do you thinking now? Yeah, that right~ We went there for our high tea time!

Sushi~ Sushi~ I love you!

Our deserts!

What is this? Anyone know?

Yummy~ Yummy~ Yaki Yaki foods very delicious!

This Sashimi look like very delicious, I can eat this sashimi because of Wai Kit & Jacky. Because of them, the Restaurant sifu make this for us. They working here before so the sifu know them and treat them this sashimi. Let Enjoy~ Thank Wai Kit & Jacky.

Yaki Yaki Toilet, Left to Right: Wai Kit , Me , Andy and Jacky!

Left to Right: Jacky , Andy and Wai Kit!

Left to Right: Jacky , Wai Kit and Me!

Wai Kit & Andy!

We really enjoy the trip so much,
even we only go 1 day but full with happiness!

Happy Deepavali to all my indian friends! Hope you all have a wonderful new year!

After changing my hairstyle, I also want to change myself.
I wanted to give up on certain thing, but I dun know I can do it or not.
Without someone can I still survive in this world?
I Love You!

13 October 2009, Over here I wish Happy Birthday to my friends, Wai Lap & Jayremy. My wish to them is whatever wish their made in front of thier birthday cake, will faster come true. Before that let me show you all birthday boy's pictures.



















Wai Lap & Jayremy
*These picture I was stealing from their facebook profile without their permission, hope they dun mind! :)

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Hopeless Life~

13 October 2009, already leave university more
than two weeks, in this period of my life live
for no meaning. With this I have
waste this holiday without doing anything. My
life now really hopeless, even
myself also dun know what to do anymore.

What is the actual meaning of life?
To make sure what someone heart thought,
not to use your eyes to look at it but is to
use your heart to feel on it.

Life is just like a movie and the GOD is the director
of the movie, everything has been written
down inside a book and we as human only can
follow what has been fated by
the GOD then everything will be fine!

Everything is over, even my life too,
Some how or rather, whatever I am think is just
like whatever you are thinking too.
I miss my old life compared with today life!

6 October 2009, changing motherboard. At last my laptop is fix and can online back, these days without my laptop really so boring and sad. That day when i was playing games at facebook, suddenly my laptop turn off without reason. That time I thought my laptop out of battery, when I plug in my the adapter and press the power button it nothing happen. That time I only know something go wrong and spoil.

After that I called my LengZai Buddy for the Customer Service Phone, because my buddy also using dell. Over here I wanted to say thank you to him, without the number I cannot contact the staff and help me out. Thank Tommy, you are the best! :) Also need to say thank you to the staff who help me change the motherboard. Without him, I also cannot online! Thank Ya!

Remove the hard disk!

Removing the old motherboard!

Everything has been removed.

Ready to replace the new motherboard!

Old Motherboard!

After replace the new motherboard, my laptop can be on it back.
Everything still the same, thank GOD!
Hope no more next time, really made me worry about my laptop!
Without someone everything not doing well!

4 October 2009, Mooncake Festival. First of all, I wish all my friends and buddy, Happy Mooncake Festival. Hope you all happy when you enjoying your meals with your parents. Whatever sadness cases you having, temporary put it down and enjoy your meals with your parents. This festival is only once a year so do not let this opportunity to celebrate with your family.

I had been celebrate this festival for so many years and this year is the most happy year compare to previous. Maybe I too miss my family members since I already move out more than 3 months. I feel very excited when I was chatting with my daddy. Day I was born until now, I never chat with my daddy until like this, usually just asked and answered. Virtually never chat until like what we did last night.

When that time I was preparing some food for meal, my daddy asked me to drink wine with him. That time I was very surprise, first time this words came out from his mouth. I feel very happy while we celebrating the festival. This year also the first time I drank wine with my family members including my mum. Nothing is Impossible, miracle is still there waiting for you! Hope every years also can celebrate with them until so memorial.

Made by my mum!

Hope all of you enjoy your meals with your parents!

Today Title, Mooncake Festival!
Hope all of you have a wonderful memory on this Festival!
Happy Mooncake Festival!

27 September 2009, Zzz... more than one weeks didn't update my blog liao lor. This week feel not very well, not because of sick. It because of some small matters problem and stupid reasons. These days my heart feel very tight, tight until going to explode soon. I am curious that still got hope in this world ma? Maybe still got hope around, but not all the hope will succeed. I am not sure whether this world still got hope waiting for me or not. Everytime when I need them, they won't appear in front of me even I already try my best on certain things. Maybe they cannot feel that I already test my best, the they feel that I still can do more better than now. But actually I can't, I don't know what I can do anymore. If hope still around, please give me some respond, at least let me feel that you are around.

Day I was born and lived until now, all the cases that apply on me which I was sad. The sad cases is just like be arranged waiting me. The sadness cases keep on disturbing me non-stop until so hard to me continue with my life. It because of keep on thinking sadness cases and start to give up on happiness cases. Honestly is true, most of the free time when I was sitting alone, all my sadness memory will come looking for me. But I didn't give up my happiness, mostly look like they giving up on me. Even now, my heart and mind is not under my control already. There was a time I wasted to give up on my current life, I feel very hard to survive on this kind of life. I feel very tired, tired until the entire body cannot move. Hope the time can pass faster, do not wish to stay at this kind of situation. If not, everything please return back as usual.

What is the better way for me to release my sadness? I tried scream it out before but no use, my heart still very down, dun know what can I do to calm down myself. What will you do if you wanted to release your sadness? If you do not mind, share it at chat box so I can tried whether can release my sadness or not. Everything is over, end of trimester 1, end of examination, end of special relationship, end of my current life. I thought after the examination I will feel much better and happier. Apparently not what I thought, it still the same. All my friends and buddy's, after the examination they all so happy and feel no more stress. But me still the same, just like a dead zombie. Do not know why I am in this world. What is the purpose I am here?

Buddy, sorry for making you all worry me. Thank for the care that I gain from you all for these few months. Especially I person, this person very care about my problem since I was here. The day I came to kampar until I know this person, everytime when I need help, he is the first one who come out and help me. But I know I am bad, I made him disappointed on me. Until now I not dare to talk with him because of feel very embarrass. I am so sorry. Buddy, enjoy your sem break, happy holiday!

Someone story Episode 3
Someone already half recover
on current heart injuries. Because of time and
final examination, someone already tried his best to put down all the sadness cases and
pretend nothing is happening so that can focus on this final examination.
One day, someone do something and made someone misunderstanding on what
someone do. Because of this midunderstanding, it made someone
heart injuries again. More worst than last time, is like using a
knife pierced again on the current injuries.

Someone do not know what can he do anymore. Even someone already
try his best to save back the relationship. But also no use.
Someone already do so many thing, until he sacrifice so many thing because of
someone. But someone look like do not feel anything. Because of
someone wanted to save back the relationship so whatever
someone can do, he will try his best to do. Whatever someone can change,
he also will try his best to change himself. So that,
someone can feel the changes on someone and try to accept him back.
Maybe someone feel what someone do but just pretend nothing is happening
because someone do not wish to continue on current relationship.

Last time, someone also make someone feel dissapointed and hate someone
because of someone always force someone to make a decision.
Because of this, someone hate someone so someone do not wish to
continue the relationship with someone. Another reason is
someone treat someone as another person so
someone scare someone wanted to continue the relationship
not because of someone. Is because of someone else. [ Third party ]

Someone admit that he treat someone as another person before but
when someone lost someone that time, someone only realise
that he wanted to continue this relationship not because of someone else.
Someone thought he still cannot forget someone else, but actually
someone cannot forget someone. Someone do so many thing
because of someone still love someone.

End of someone story episode 3. This episode came out another someone.
Each someone have
his own colour so that reader won't misunderstanding.


After you read, drop comments on today title, Everything is over!
I wish the GOD will bless us when we are facing some trouble.
God bless us! Thank GOD. =)

14 September 2009, More than 1 week I didn't update my blog. Don't know still got friend or reader still wanted to know more about me or not? No matter still got reader or not, I still will update my blog when I feel that I got something to share here. These days I didn't update my blog because already end of the trimester liao, quite busy and need to focus on my Final Examination. Today is the second test of my final Examination, English Language. Until now, my mind still blank and don't know what to read on English Language because my english language every poor. I really don't where should I start maybe for me, English Language is too hard for me. As you all can read, today title is "What is fate?". I had been using this word for more than 10 years but I really don't understand what is fate mean. Is that my English really so poor? What is the true meaning behind of this word?

Reader, what do you think now? From the previous post until now, did I make any changes on my decision? Look like the time forcing me to make a new decision again. The new decision that I made is follow my mind, give up on my old decision and start my new life. Still not sure whether this new decision I made is good or not. Maybe now, thing I can do is just let the time help me again. Out of difficulties, make miracle. Learn from Burning Flames III TVB Hong Kong Drama. Hope miracle will appears in front of me. You are the one I need but also the one I want, I need you in my life so I can continue with my current life.

The days before my final examination start, learn something new from my friends. He told me that when you went out with your friends, don't bring along your sadness. Tried to put down all your problem and sadness before you went out. As your friends, they also don't wish to see you went out with them but full of your own problem and sadness. Maybe I don't know how to do but at least I understand what my friends told me. Now, whatever I do in front of my friends, I will try to laugh more and pretend nothing is happening while I enjoy the movement with them. Maybe these days I look more happiness compare to the sadness.
When you see something dun only see the surface. Try to feel what is hiding inside!

Someone Story Episode 2
Someone tried to forget someone in his life but someone cannot do that
because someone still treat someone as buddy.
These days someone and someone pretend nothing is
happening and continue with their own life.
Someone already forget every happy movement with someone. Only
someone still so stupid keep thinking the happy
movement on someone.

When someone talking to someone, someone tried to give a better respond so that
someone think someone also forget every sadness problem
and continue with buddy relationship.
Actually, someone assume nothing is happen and always tried to talk with someone back so
someone won't worry about someone again. Because
someone also same with someone, also need to focus on final examination.

Someone don't wish to continue the special relationship with someone,
because of someone don't want to hurt someone anymore.
Someone know he had been hurt by someone for some many times. Because
of this someone wanted to give up.
Actually, someone really don't mind someone hurt him before and
someone really hope after the little war, every back to normal
but it is impossible to let someone accept back again.

Honestly someone still the same, didn't change decision before,
because of the final examination war,
someone tried to put it down and focus on final.
Maybe someone still cannot accept the true, someone really
need time to recover on current heart injuries.

End of someone story episode 2.
Don't misunderstanding someone and someone.
Try to replace someone with a name, then you will understand better.
Remember, this story got 2 someone.

Feel free? Drop some comments to me on today title! What is fate?
Take care and good luck to all the students that having test after this.

3 Sept 2009, These day I didn't update my blog because don't know what can I share over here. Whenever I want to start writing the blog, all the bad memory appears in front of me and block my destination. Now I cannot see anything in front of me but I only know Final Examination is still waiting me.These day I really cannot focus on my studies because I made the wrong decision before! I really don't know what is happening? I had make a wrong decision that me myself also can't accept this fate. I tried to give up on the decision that I made before but I can't.

I don't know still can change the decision or not? Anyone can pull me out from the block hole? Is that so easy to let us forget something on their heart or mind? I really don't know how to do so that I can change myself, my mind and heart so blur now. Even my buddy advice me on don't follow both side, based on logically and every single angle. But all circle around me, no angle at all. If just listen to my heart, then I wish to continue the decision that I made, if listen to my mind, it told me to stop and forget about the decision and start the new life. I don't know which side should I follow? Which side more important? We as human will die if we live without mind and we also will die if we live without heart. Both also so important, what should I choose?

In a movement of time, I am curious about What magical power should you have? Then I took the quiz and got the result: Mind Reading! You always know what others are thinking, and are bit of a know it all. You get on every body's nerves, but are very dependable when needed. I really hope that I got the power of Mind Reading so I know what should I do in the future. What can I do anymore? Always make the wrong decision! I will quit choosing new decision anymore!

My groupmate's comments!

The decision that I made before really hard for me to accept it. My senior Calvin said already past lor, just leave it ba. Jia You on your study, if not you will regret! Let the time to help you, everything depends on timing, let the time passes and your hurts will be pass too! Maybe what he said is correct, only time can help me but it look like no much time left. At last I realized that I really had make a wrong decision. This decision really so heavy for me to carry on in my life.

Someone Story
Something that make someone do some mistake at certain place,
make someone really don't know what to do and how to do!
Someone like forcing someone to do something but
someone don't wan to face the problem. Look like
someone really wanted to give up.
Someone also can't forgive himself, how you expect
the GOD will forgive someone?

Someone want make someone happy but someone know that someone
wanted to make someone happy and someone pretend nothing is happening.
Someone want to keep the movements but
someone wanted to give up on the happy memory.
Someone don't know what someone is thinking.
Someone hope the happy movements with someone will continue on.

Take it easy, this is someone story that based on my mind,
If you understand what someone mean, just keep it inside your heart!
If you don't understand what someone mean, just ignore this story!

27 August 2009, Long time didn’t updates blog already, because I was very busy. These days really nothing special is happening. After get some advice, I become happier. Yesterday after wake up, my heart was very pain. I got some bad feel but I don’t know what is that feel. Those feel still there until yesterday night. After something special is happening then the feel gone. I wanted to change, but I don’t know what thing can make me change. Yesterday night, we go eat steamboats our dinner. Don’t know what to write ler, just see the image lor.


Today I feel very down because of some reason but I don’t wish to share it here. After something special is happening, I feel that I wanted to change my life. I don’t wish to continue doing what I doing before this. I feel like wanted to give up on this kind of life, I really so tired to handle those problems. I wanted to start my new life without all the pain that I was having before this. Anyone can tell me what I should do next? These kinds of life really make me so hard to continue on it. I did something very bad and make me can’t forgive myself. Don’t know why, this problem seen normal only ma but for me really so hard to put it down. Really dun knows how to face the coming problem. I really hate this kind of life, anyone can pull me out?

Because of today I was very down, so I didn’t attend any classes. I know I should not do like this but no choice. I really don’t wish to go. So I stay inside my room for the whole day. Keep on thinking what I should do next, what I suppose to do for me to give up my old life. Until now I still don’t know how to do. Because I didn’t something that very bad, is just like taking other people thing without their permission. Don’t know how to say, but I feel that I was so bad even the person said he doesn’t mind but I really mind what I do before. I don’t know how to face this person in the future. I really wanted to dig a hole and hide my face inside there. What should I do? Can you please come back and guide me? For this moment I really need her to accompany me. Don’t worry I won’t stop there and wait for her to come back. Life is still going on, maybe one day is me going there and find her ler.

About Me

Name: Issac
Age:
18
Home:
Ipoh, Perak, Malaysia
Campus:
University Tunku Abdul Rahman Perak Campus
Activities:
1. Gaming
2. Party
3. Hang-out
4. Make new friends
Status:
Single but belongs to her

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