LonelyBoy's Blog

16 October 2009, 1 day KL Trip, Before the trip, I was very disappointed on someone that he break his promise on me. Feel very upset because he already give me a hope and promise me will do it but later on he look like didn't take any action on it so I think he might been forgotten what he promise me before. Actually, I am not angry or blame who is this kind of situation just feel unlucky because I cannot get the promise from him. Maybe because of the economic problem!

*Don't misunderstanding, someone above is not the someone from the story!

Back to the topic, going KL with buddy [ Wai Kit & Jacky ] for 1 day only because on the other day, Jacky got something to do so we need to go back. But I really enjoy the trip even the trip only 1 day. So many thing that I haven't experienced it before example like sleeping at MCD while we waiting for the train to come. Some more we was cheated by KL people, 3 of us has been cheated for RM40.

At first, they blocked our way and ask us to give them 1 minute to explain.

Swindler: Hi, I am form dun know where and ask you all to give us some support.
Me: What do you want me to help you?
Swindler: Just help me write down your name here and you dun have any damnification at all.

I feel like nothing wrong by just helping them write down my own name. Then I just follow what they said, write down my name, age, handphone number and the next is...

Swindler: Sir, how much do you want to support us?
Me: Har? Want to support by donating money? Then I support them RM10.
Swindler: Sorry, please don't mind the minimum you need to support us is RM20.
Me: [ Speechless, thinking the should I donate or not. ]
Swindler: Please lar, we really need your all de support so that we can continue with our program.
Me: Ok lor, I will support you all by donating RM20.
Swindler: Oh... Thank you Sir. [ Keep talking nonsense ]

Wai Kit and Jacky also cheated by them, not only 1 cheater. Got a group of them doing but I am the most stupid one among of us, let the swindler cheated me RM2o. Both of them on support them by donating RM10 only. Pity me... Crying! Why? Why? Why Me?

What do you thinking now? Yeah, that right~ We went there for our high tea time!

Sushi~ Sushi~ I love you!

Our deserts!

What is this? Anyone know?

Yummy~ Yummy~ Yaki Yaki foods very delicious!

This Sashimi look like very delicious, I can eat this sashimi because of Wai Kit & Jacky. Because of them, the Restaurant sifu make this for us. They working here before so the sifu know them and treat them this sashimi. Let Enjoy~ Thank Wai Kit & Jacky.

Yaki Yaki Toilet, Left to Right: Wai Kit , Me , Andy and Jacky!

Left to Right: Jacky , Andy and Wai Kit!

Left to Right: Jacky , Wai Kit and Me!

Wai Kit & Andy!

We really enjoy the trip so much,
even we only go 1 day but full with happiness!

Happy Deepavali to all my indian friends! Hope you all have a wonderful new year!

After changing my hairstyle, I also want to change myself.
I wanted to give up on certain thing, but I dun know I can do it or not.
Without someone can I still survive in this world?
I Love You!

13 October 2009, Over here I wish Happy Birthday to my friends, Wai Lap & Jayremy. My wish to them is whatever wish their made in front of thier birthday cake, will faster come true. Before that let me show you all birthday boy's pictures.

6 October 2009, changing motherboard. At last my laptop is fix and can online back, these days without my laptop really so boring and sad. That day when i was playing games at facebook, suddenly my laptop turn off without reason. That time I thought my laptop out of battery, when I plug in my the adapter and press the power button it nothing happen. That time I only know something go wrong and spoil.

After that I called my LengZai Buddy for the Customer Service Phone, because my buddy also using dell. Over here I wanted to say thank you to him, without the number I cannot contact the staff and help me out. Thank Tommy, you are the best! :) Also need to say thank you to the staff who help me change the motherboard. Without him, I also cannot online! Thank Ya!

Remove the hard disk!

Removing the old motherboard!

Everything has been removed.

Ready to replace the new motherboard!

Old Motherboard!

After replace the new motherboard, my laptop can be on it back.
Everything still the same, thank GOD!
Hope no more next time, really made me worry about my laptop!
Without someone everything not doing well!

4 October 2009, Mooncake Festival. First of all, I wish all my friends and buddy, Happy Mooncake Festival. Hope you all happy when you enjoying your meals with your parents. Whatever sadness cases you having, temporary put it down and enjoy your meals with your parents. This festival is only once a year so do not let this opportunity to celebrate with your family.

I had been celebrate this festival for so many years and this year is the most happy year compare to previous. Maybe I too miss my family members since I already move out more than 3 months. I feel very excited when I was chatting with my daddy. Day I was born until now, I never chat with my daddy until like this, usually just asked and answered. Virtually never chat until like what we did last night.

When that time I was preparing some food for meal, my daddy asked me to drink wine with him. That time I was very surprise, first time this words came out from his mouth. I feel very happy while we celebrating the festival. This year also the first time I drank wine with my family members including my mum. Nothing is Impossible, miracle is still there waiting for you! Hope every years also can celebrate with them until so memorial.

Made by my mum!

Hope all of you enjoy your meals with your parents!

Today Title, Mooncake Festival!
Hope all of you have a wonderful memory on this Festival!
Happy Mooncake Festival!

27 September 2009, Zzz... more than one weeks didn't update my blog liao lor. This week feel not very well, not because of sick. It because of some small matters problem and stupid reasons. These days my heart feel very tight, tight until going to explode soon. I am curious that still got hope in this world ma? Maybe still got hope around, but not all the hope will succeed. I am not sure whether this world still got hope waiting for me or not. Everytime when I need them, they won't appear in front of me even I already try my best on certain things. Maybe they cannot feel that I already test my best, the they feel that I still can do more better than now. But actually I can't, I don't know what I can do anymore. If hope still around, please give me some respond, at least let me feel that you are around.

Day I was born and lived until now, all the cases that apply on me which I was sad. The sad cases is just like be arranged waiting me. The sadness cases keep on disturbing me non-stop until so hard to me continue with my life. It because of keep on thinking sadness cases and start to give up on happiness cases. Honestly is true, most of the free time when I was sitting alone, all my sadness memory will come looking for me. But I didn't give up my happiness, mostly look like they giving up on me. Even now, my heart and mind is not under my control already. There was a time I wasted to give up on my current life, I feel very hard to survive on this kind of life. I feel very tired, tired until the entire body cannot move. Hope the time can pass faster, do not wish to stay at this kind of situation. If not, everything please return back as usual.

What is the better way for me to release my sadness? I tried scream it out before but no use, my heart still very down, dun know what can I do to calm down myself. What will you do if you wanted to release your sadness? If you do not mind, share it at chat box so I can tried whether can release my sadness or not. Everything is over, end of trimester 1, end of examination, end of special relationship, end of my current life. I thought after the examination I will feel much better and happier. Apparently not what I thought, it still the same. All my friends and buddy's, after the examination they all so happy and feel no more stress. But me still the same, just like a dead zombie. Do not know why I am in this world. What is the purpose I am here?

Buddy, sorry for making you all worry me. Thank for the care that I gain from you all for these few months. Especially I person, this person very care about my problem since I was here. The day I came to kampar until I know this person, everytime when I need help, he is the first one who come out and help me. But I know I am bad, I made him disappointed on me. Until now I not dare to talk with him because of feel very embarrass. I am so sorry. Buddy, enjoy your sem break, happy holiday!

14 September 2009, More than 1 week I didn't update my blog. Don't know still got friend or reader still wanted to know more about me or not? No matter still got reader or not, I still will update my blog when I feel that I got something to share here. These days I didn't update my blog because already end of the trimester liao, quite busy and need to focus on my Final Examination. Today is the second test of my final Examination, English Language. Until now, my mind still blank and don't know what to read on English Language because my english language every poor. I really don't where should I start maybe for me, English Language is too hard for me. As you all can read, today title is "What is fate?". I had been using this word for more than 10 years but I really don't understand what is fate mean. Is that my English really so poor? What is the true meaning behind of this word?

Reader, what do you think now? From the previous post until now, did I make any changes on my decision? Look like the time forcing me to make a new decision again. The new decision that I made is follow my mind, give up on my old decision and start my new life. Still not sure whether this new decision I made is good or not. Maybe now, thing I can do is just let the time help me again. Out of difficulties, make miracle. Learn from Burning Flames III TVB Hong Kong Drama. Hope miracle will appears in front of me. You are the one I need but also the one I want, I need you in my life so I can continue with my current life.

3 Sept 2009, These day I didn't update my blog because don't know what can I share over here. Whenever I want to start writing the blog, all the bad memory appears in front of me and block my destination. Now I cannot see anything in front of me but I only know Final Examination is still waiting me.These day I really cannot focus on my studies because I made the wrong decision before! I really don't know what is happening? I had make a wrong decision that me myself also can't accept this fate. I tried to give up on the decision that I made before but I can't.

I don't know still can change the decision or not? Anyone can pull me out from the block hole? Is that so easy to let us forget something on their heart or mind? I really don't know how to do so that I can change myself, my mind and heart so blur now. Even my buddy advice me on don't follow both side, based on logically and every single angle. But all circle around me, no angle at all. If just listen to my heart, then I wish to continue the decision that I made, if listen to my mind, it told me to stop and forget about the decision and start the new life. I don't know which side should I follow? Which side more important? We as human will die if we live without mind and we also will die if we live without heart. Both also so important, what should I choose?

In a movement of time, I am curious about What magical power should you have? Then I took the quiz and got the result: Mind Reading! You always know what others are thinking, and are bit of a know it all. You get on every body's nerves, but are very dependable when needed. I really hope that I got the power of Mind Reading so I know what should I do in the future. What can I do anymore? Always make the wrong decision! I will quit choosing new decision anymore!

My groupmate's comments!

27 August 2009, Long time didn’t updates blog already, because I was very busy. These days really nothing special is happening. After get some advice, I become happier. Yesterday after wake up, my heart was very pain. I got some bad feel but I don’t know what is that feel. Those feel still there until yesterday night. After something special is happening then the feel gone. I wanted to change, but I don’t know what thing can make me change. Yesterday night, we go eat steamboats our dinner. Don’t know what to write ler, just see the image lor.

Today I feel very down because of some reason but I don’t wish to share it here. After something special is happening, I feel that I wanted to change my life. I don’t wish to continue doing what I doing before this. I feel like wanted to give up on this kind of life, I really so tired to handle those problems. I wanted to start my new life without all the pain that I was having before this. Anyone can tell me what I should do next? These kinds of life really make me so hard to continue on it. I did something very bad and make me can’t forgive myself. Don’t know why, this problem seen normal only ma but for me really so hard to put it down. Really dun knows how to face the coming problem. I really hate this kind of life, anyone can pull me out?

Because of today I was very down, so I didn’t attend any classes. I know I should not do like this but no choice. I really don’t wish to go. So I stay inside my room for the whole day. Keep on thinking what I should do next, what I suppose to do for me to give up my old life. Until now I still don’t know how to do. Because I didn’t something that very bad, is just like taking other people thing without their permission. Don’t know how to say, but I feel that I was so bad even the person said he doesn’t mind but I really mind what I do before. I don’t know how to face this person in the future. I really wanted to dig a hole and hide my face inside there. What should I do? Can you please come back and guide me? For this moment I really need her to accompany me. Don’t worry I won’t stop there and wait for her to come back. Life is still going on, maybe one day is me going there and find her ler.